Don't think about it anymore

Oooh yeah. It's kinda sorta done. Bwahaha. I don't even care anymore. I'll just leave this thing looking like this, and I'll edit when I ...can? Haha. Is it obvious I got photoshop-crazy? Yeah. This is what boredom can do. Shet, I feel so unproductive and useless. I'll try reviewing back my Spanish. Ha. As if I get anywhere. Hablo un poco espanyol. Har har. How do you do the enye anyway?

Bleah. It's really quite irritating how sometimes when you're all alone for example in your room, you just lay there on your bed and a million things goes through your mind all at the same time. And you wanna write about it, but when you're already there in front of the computer, you have no idea what to write about. Right? Right? *wink*wink* Haha. Yeas. And back to that thinking-in-your-bedroom-thing, it is really weird how you think about one thing, but you still are thinking about something other than that one thing and many many more. Waah. Ang gulo na. Yun yun eh. Magulo. And..

Gahhh. You know what? You don't know what. Haha. Labo. Yeas. I have this thing that when I have a problem I try as much as possible not to think about it in the hopes that it would eventually just float awaaaaay. It would hopefully just disappear or be less of a problem by the time I think about it. haha. Ang stuuupid. I mean, I know definitely that it would not be solved that way, but..I just don't think about it. Gahhh. And by the time I should take care of it, everything gets worse. Gaaahh. Feccckeedoo. Hate it. Lesson: Wag mag-isip ng kahit ano.

I couldn't sleep again last night. I just felt so awake Haha. I could...run. Haha. Yeah. 10pm tp past 12 midnight are really my peak hours. I was just lying there in my bed and no matter how many mellow songs were playing in the radio, I couldn't sleep at all. Sumisikat na yata yung araw nung nakatulog ako. Bleah.

ANYWAY. I just finished reading Nick Hornby's A Long Way Down. Yeas. The book critics were right about him. He's really a very good writer. He just captures you. Blah. Whatever that means. Umm..just a gist of what it's about. Four strangers meet on New Year's eve on top of a building. It just happens that they were planning to take their lives the same time and on the same place. The story evolves on how they deal with their problems and that sort of thing. Anyway, what I love about this book is how its characters are all so real. Real people with real problems. It's like the characters are saying what I feel about m0st things. It's somewhat like I wrote it. Yeah, but I couldn't write that good. I'll just post some "quotable quotes" from the book. Haha. They're not really quotes, but worth pondering on. Umm. Some of these you won't really get if you haven't read the book. Hahaha.

"But I wish I was one of those people, the people who know what to say, the people who can't see the difference. Because it seems to me that you have more chance of being to live a life you can stand if you live like that."

"It felt like pure joy or natural high...I had that feeling maybe a hundred times a year, and not many people get it even once in their lives."

"One's real life if often the life one does not lead." --Oscar Wilde

"I like to know that there are big places w/o windows where no one gives a shit. It takes confidence to go into small places with regular customers, small book shops, restos, cafes. I 'm happiest in the likes of Starbucks, where no one gives a shit, and no one knows who you are. My mum and dad goes on about how soulless those places are, and I'm like, Der. That's the point." (Not true here in our country, with so many pa-cool peeps.Waha)

"How do people not, like, curse? There are all these gaps in speech where you just have to put a 'fuck'. I'll tell you the most admirable people in the world are: newscasters. If that was me, I'd be like, "And the motherfuckers flew the fucking plane right into the Twin Towers" How could you not, if you're a human being?"

"I don't know about you, but choice isn't always what I want. You can end up flicking between one channel and another, and not watching either programme properly. I don't know how people with cable television cope."

"When you're unhappy, I guess everything in the world - reading, eating, sleeping - has something buried somewhere inside it that just makes you unhappier."

"We all spend so much time not saying what we want, because we know we can't have it. And because it sounds ungracious, or ungrateful, or disloyal, or childish, or banal. Or because we're so desperate to pretend that things are okay...Go on, say what you want. Maybe not out loud if it's going to get you into trouble...The truth will set you free."
Surviving in whatever life you're living means lying, and lying corrodes the soul, so take a break from the lies just one minute."

Yep. Think about it.