The owl

Ever since I can't remember, I have always been a night owl. I have always stayed up til the wee hours of the morning doing all the things I was too lazy to do during the day. My peak hours are definitely the times when most people are all ready to turn up, and prepare to go to their dreamworld and forget the hassling and busy day they had. I on the other hand, is preparing to get busy with studying, or reading, or doodling, while turning down the volume of the radio so as not to bother those sleeping. The radio definitely is a great companion during episodes like these.

Sometimes I even feel as if sleeping is just a waste of time. So much to do, so little time. And how could you just not use all the quiet going around? But yeah, the advantages of having a good night's sleep has been proven so many times.

Insomnia has always been a part of my lifestyle, or um, un-sleeping habits? When I was about eight or nine, I already had a hard time going to sleep, and I would even cry. Don't ask me why, I myself have no idea. It's just so funny when I think about it now. I don't know, maybe the thought that I'm all alone in my "awake-ness" and being in the dark made me feel scared and unsure of things. But it's great how things turned around. Now, I have made acquiese with the fact that I can't go on resting and dreaming while everyones else is. I have embraced the fact that I feel very awake and energized the times Jay Leno and Conan O'Brian appears on television. I have loved the feeling of being alone in the stillness outside the four corners of my room.

What is really great about this time of the night is the cool air coming inside the window. You see, my room is not blessed with an air conditioning system and I take advantage of all the cooling strategies I can think of especially during the summer season. And that includes sitting in front of the fan with a filled icebag in hand. The air is very different in the night time you know...

And so I have learned to use it. Starting high school, I would usually sleep after getting home and waking up about 9 to do school work. It's also the time some of my classmates-slash-chatmates are up. Studying during those hours actually helped and I was able to think more clearly and was not in any way under pressure.

In these midnight episodes also is when I get to finish what I started reading. The quiet and the stillness helps a lot. No distractions or whatever. No one's going to bug you. Well, if there was, maybe it's time to get scared again...

And of course, how can someone eliminate the thought that these are the hours of partying and getting truly wasted with your buds? And with my insomniac self, this comes as an advantage because I could still go and stand with my own two feet and walk straight even when I already had a drink or two...or three...or four. Just don't invite me on happy hours, maybe I'd blackout after one bottle of smb light.

Midinght. After midnight. Night time. Ahhhh, my time of pure concentation and relaxation, but at the same time work and partying. It all works out now. Now, I'd just have to do something about those dark circles under my eyes, and how the sunlight wakes my very groggy self in the morning.